|*20th May'07*|

I felt that something has been taken away from me.

You know, last time when I have anything that bothers me or something that made me very happy and even some random things that I encounter or thought of, I will tell you. I can easily say out nearly everything.. except for 1 particular thing la..=x You have been someone whom I confide to when anything happens, because I know you can advice me on them, you help me to see the problems in different angle, you help to me take away the anger and you lift me from below. Although sometimes dicussions on certain things just didn't go well, but I know you understand and things will resolve. But now, I am lost. I'm facing the same problem, and yet I can't tell you anymore. I can't even speak to you like before, how I can even speak to you about everything esle? I don't know how it became this way. I have no one who can help me or make me understand what is going on. You, on the other hand know from the beginning till now. I'm being drowned by the overpowering "bad aura". Even if I found someone trustworthy and understanding, that person can only be my listening ear.

I can't be pushed down this way, this is just too much and is getting out of hand, far worst than before. Not everyone sees it because they are not the victims, I see it because I am targetted. This is a result of the temptations from satan to have power over others, self-centred and glory. I could only see the "bad" working but not you(the" good") working. Are you aware of the current happenings? Can you see the injustice? Are you willing to find out? Or are you just being ignorant to it all? You have the position to make it right for everyone, but are you willing to find out? Will your conscience allow these 'bad' things to affect others, to spoil everything for them?

I have no say. I stood out of everything because I respect 'everything'. But it's getting out of control, come back. Please, come to realisation before it's too late.

Sigh... What has this world become to.....